|I love the lighting for this, but mostly the memories.|
What is This?What do you do, when you can't stop crying?What is This? by WrenoftheCookes
Do you go out, do you drink or smoke or find your friends?
Do you forget about the world by drowning yourself in it?
I try to; I sit at the computer of all places, going deaf from the headphones, I feel the salt drying on my face and silent-scream the words to these songs I still dream I will sing, in front of a screaming crowd, only then I'll be deaf to their cries and it will be just about me.
Then the ad comes on the radio and I feel silly, naive, and remember that the reason I'm here in the first place is simply my instability, my age, my hormones, to be honest.
So I talk to my friends online, or more likely I lose myself through writing--roleplaying, technically. I can't think about the real people in my life, because they're the people I don't trust, the people who make me uncomfortable. I know that friends and family test you--it's not always smooth sailing, but shouldn't you have that one person? That someone you can always t
I am a teen. You can probably tell from the picture. Which, by the way, is as it is because I suck at taking photos of my face.|
Lets hope I get better.
Anyway, I'm a fairly chatty person, I have an odd mentality that I suppose is what we call 'gender-fluid'. I mean, I feel almost like I fit better as being male, but then I'm also definitely a girl. So, whatevs.
Anyway, I live in the city, though I frequent a friend's farm. I really want to further my education ofmore physical arts such as dancing, music, and acting, but I'/m kind of in a slump as far as that goes, formally anyway. Lord knows I can do it on my own, whether I do it well or not...well....
But I love to talk, so if you have a question, or anything, I will be exTREMELY pleased to hear from ya!